old enough to know better but young enough not to care

This is going to be al ooong blog session. I have a ton on my mind.

megkleeves — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 21:58:22 +0000

Okay I dont even know where to start. I’m so lost in my thoughts right now. First things first. For those of you who don’t already know I moved. I moved into a house with my a girl named Erin. We are getting along great and I really love her.

I’m back at Woodard… but I’m not happy at all. I’m getting so burnt out here. I’m always stressed out and I’m always unhappy. I need to move on. I need to get my priorities together. I have a part time job at applebee’s now too. A friend can get me a job at the Coach store. I may take it. I just need to get my head right. As of now it takes me 40 minutes to get to work, on a good day. I have to be there a half hour before my shift. So all together it’s about a 10 1/2 hour day. NOT FUN anymore. And to make matter ever worse apparently every time I’m not a full half hour early to work I am getting tracked by a supervisor. I know, I know… if I dont like the rules then I know where the door is… and that is fine by me.

Next subject… Oh the joys of a relationship… Scott and I are doing okay. We haven’t been fighting much and we are getting to spend a lot of time together. One problem… Marcus. We have been talking a lot. I love Scott with all my heart, but I really enjoy talking to Marcus. I’m very honest with Scott about it but it’s still always on my mind. So I dont know what I’m going to do about that situation. I’ll keep you posted.

Now on to my house situation. The guy that lives down stairs, Kevin, is being a real asshole lately. I can’t even stand him anymore. At first we tried to all be friends and hang out but over time I just realized that our personalities clash. BIG TIME. I just get so annoyed when he thinks he’s better than us. And I can only be so nice for so long…

I know this doesnt sound like much but all this combined has got me stressin out BIG TIME! =/

Sick days…

megkleeves — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 15:51:32 +0000

Yesterday I was ill. I missed work and I slept all day. I’m still not too sure what’s going on but I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow morning at 9am. This week has been crazy, but really good! On Monday I looked at houses and Erin and I found one in Coventry. It’s nice and super cute. We will live above this guy named Kevin. He seems like a pretty cool guy. He’s a year older than Erin and I. Tonight I’m going to Dave & Busters for Natasha’s birthday. I can’t wait to just chill with some of my closest friends MUCH NEEDED!! Speaking of Natasha… she is already 1 cent. dilated! and 60 % effaced! So hopefully we’ll have a baby soon. This weekend should be fun! Saturday Scott and I are doing this mud volleyball charity event with Amanda. I’m excited!! Well I have to get back to work…

weekends over… back to work!!

megkleeves — Mon, 13 Jul 2009 19:41:49 +0000

The weekend went really well for me! Scott’s dad was out of town and I stayed there all weekend. Friday night was uneventful. Just watched a few movies and went to bed. Saturday I was so lazy! I was wiped out from the week and needed to recoop. I didn’t do much until Scott got out of work. Scott, his friend Kyle, Alan, and myself went out to eat and grabbed a few drinks. We went to this girls house for her birthday. It was nice and chill. I was getting really annoyed because I didn’t really feel like drinking and she kept telling me to drink. I have that lol…. We didn’t stay out late and went home and got to bed. Sunday Scott, Alan, and I went to Scott’s grandma’s for lunch. I love Scott’s grandma. She is so sweet and cute! She was showing me a bunch of pictures from her family in Europe and pictures of Scott when he was a little boy. I fell in love with him all over again =) After grandma’s we went to the beach and relaxed. It was the highlight of the weekend!! Scott had a softball game last night so we went to that, rented a movie, and called it a night.

Today I’m working for a few more hours and then looking at another house. I really like this one so we’ll see!! Super excited for my birthday coming up!! That’s all for now!

love

megkleeves — Sat, 04 Jul 2009 16:16:23 +0000

I’ve always been in relationships. I have also said the “l” word when I didn’t mean it. At the time I think I thought I knew what it meant, and I think I thought I felt it. It’s different now, it’s real now.

I have never felt so much love. I feel full of love. I feel complete. I feel the greatest feeling I’ve ever felt.

The past two weeks have been trying on out relationship. Scott’s been in Europe for almost two weeks. It’s the longest time we’ve ever been apart. I miss him… a lot….. but being apart has made me see exactly what we have. We have love, we have passion, and most importantly we have each other. I’m not saying it’s been easy. We’ve had our share of arguments and there were times that I wasn’t sure if it would last. And just when I thought it may be over he would surprise me. He has never given up on us.

We are so silly sometimes, and I LOVE that. We act like children sometimes. We tell stupid jokes and wrestle around, but in the middle of it all, when our eyes meet I see something I’ve never seen. I see my life, I see my future, and I see love.

I can’t put it to words, and I now know that is the meaning of love. Love is indescribable sensation that makes you yearn for more. I yearn for more.

i haven’t written in FOREVER

megkleeves — Mon, 01 Jun 2009 21:09:02 +0000

It’s been so long since I’ve written anything. I have been so busy and my laptop was broken for a while. Now it’s all fixed and my life is changing as well!

June 11th is my last day at Woodard!!!!! I’m sad to leave all the amazing coworkers I have but I’m extremely excited to meet all the new coworkers I will have. My salary, which is already not to shabby, is going to be doubled, I will be the senior event planner for a consulting firm. So I’m super excited.

Scott and I are doing really well also… Jordan Renee has her commencement on Thursday. Natasha is looking REALLY pregnant lately, her baby shower is on Saturday. Our lease is up in 2 months!! I’m excited to see what happens next…..

Tuesday…

megkleeves — Tue, 31 Mar 2009 14:41:36 +0000

Yesterday was an okay day. I was so stressed about money because it’s the end of the month. I figured everything out and it will just be tight for a few days. I also got written up at work through Reserves Network for missing a few days last week without proper notice. I was so mad. On a good note I talked to Jen and she said they are going to be buying my contract soon so no more Reserves Network! YAY!! Today I work at 2 in Ghent. I feel like I haven’t been there in so long. I’m traveling so much for work right now… I don’t know how I feel about that.

It’s official, Scott is graduating at the end of the month! I’m so proud of him. It’s a little bittersweet because although I am going to miss him soo much, I’m so proud that he is bettering his future. Hopefully he can find a job soon.

I’m still trying to think of a good April Fool’s joke to play on him tomorrow…. Any ideas??

Well he should be back from class soon and I made some cookies for him so this is all I have time for right now!

absence makes the heart grow fonder

megkleeves — Mon, 30 Mar 2009 00:24:02 +0000

So something has been bothering me for a while now and last night it intensified. I’ve been dating Scott now since November. He is my best friend. We spend all our free time together and I know I can depend on him for anything. When we first started hanging out something happened for the first time ever… I was completely comfortable, and that’s a great feeling. I never expected to become so attached to each other, but the past 5 months have been the best of my life. Now he is leaving college in less than a month. He isn’t moving very far, about an hour away, but I’m dreading it. We wake up next to each other almost every morning and now it’s not going to be like that. Breaking up had never crossed my mind. We got in an argument yesterday and I don’t even remember what it was about. It made me realize how much I really love him. After the fight we sat on the floor and cried, not because of the fight but because we realized we are wasting what time we have left to spend together by arguing. Now I’m still a little depressed about the change in our relationship. I’m willing to do what ever I have to do to make things work. I will not let the distance affect our relationship. Well that’s all for now!

my sister =(

megkleeves — Sat, 28 Mar 2009 16:21:37 +0000

Soo my sister is a senior in high school this year and is coming upon graduation. It’s hard to believe that I’ve been out of school for going on 4 years!! Anyway, my mom called me the other day and I guess my sister’s boyfriend broke up with her and she is so upset. Of course we’ve tried to tell her that she was way to good for him and to him and that she can do better. It was her first love and her heart is broken. I just wish I had the right words to say… I told her that if she wanted to hang out or come stay at my house for a few days that I would pick her up so maybe she will take the offer and come get away. Mom said she hasn’t ever seen her so upset before and boy do I believe it. She is so tempremental and is a little bit dark and emo. I just hope that she sees how much everyone loves her and that she will prevail and get over it!

easy friday…

megkleeves — Sat, 28 Mar 2009 02:31:38 +0000

Last night was a lot of fun. It was exactly what I needed after this week from hell….

Monday started out completely normal. I woke up next to Scott. We relaxed and had a good morning together. I was hungry so we decided to go grab lunch before I headed to work. After lunch I still had some time so we laid down for a nap. Not to long after I got a severe, intense pain in my abdomen. I thought it was maybe gas? I sat in the bed for a few minutes hoping it would pass. It did the exact opposite and actually got worse. Scott and I decided to go to the ER. Needless to say I missed work that day. I ended up rupturing cysts on my ovary… FUN……. Scott and Amanda stayed with me through the duration on my hospital visit. I was so thankful for my boyfriend and best friend that night. I could just see how much they love me. Scott brought me home really late or I guess you could say really early Tuesday morning. And I gave in to my sacrifice for lent… fast food. It was so late and I was so hungry because I wasn’t allowed to eat in the ER… I hope God understands.

Tuesday I was ready to get back to work, but was not allowed due to my medications and my work release. It was probably good to take it easy though.

Wednesday was back to work. It was a good day and I was finally feeling better.

Thursday Marcus came home. It was Dan from works 21 birthday so Colleen made some amazing cupcakes. The roommates and all our boys drank and had an awesome time.

This morning we woke up and went to breakfast. We went to Scott’s room and took a nap. After a while we got up and got ready. We went to see the movie The Curious Case of Benjamen Button. It was a really REALLY great movie. Needed some stuff from Walmart so we stopped and got stuff for dinner, which by the was SO good, and now we are about to watch a movie and head to bed. I have to work super early tomorrow so that’s all for now!! Gotta check the lottery numbers so hopefully next time I’ll be a millionaire blogger!!